Your Connection Was Never Lost

Earlier this week, I was planning to spend some time with Levi. I was so excited because I had put time and effort into what our session would look like. I created an obstacle course with all of his favorite props and toys.

I was a little bit hesitant on how it would go because, for the past couple of months, I haven’t been able to play with him as much as I would like. Part of me feared that our connection wouldn’t be as strong as it was before.

I went into that session thinking, “Man, what if I lost it all? I haven’t invested as much time as I normally would with him, so what if he doesn’t love me as much as he used to? What if our relationship is damaged? I will have to work so hard to earn back his love for me.”

I know what you’re thinking. It seems like an irrational fear. And you may be right. But for me, that fear felt very real.

As we began working with each other, I couldn’t help but smile because it was as if our connection was stronger than ever. We were at liberty, which, for those of you who don’t know, is when you have your horse loose with no lead rope and no halter, and they stick to you, follow you around, and listen to your commands. It is all based on your connection and relationship.

If you don’t have a connection and you go to liberty with your horse, they will immediately walk or run away, find the nearest grass, or just simply not do what you’re asking.

Levi was stuck to me like glue. The strongest glue I’ve ever felt with him.

It was in that moment that God spoke to me. He said, “How often do you question your connection with me, all because you haven’t been spending as much time with me? Your connection with me was never lost. You have me, glued to you, stronger than ever, now and forever.”

Wow. This hit home. I compare what my relationship with God looks like now to what it used to look like, and then beat myself up for not spending as much time with Him.

I fear that my connection to my Heavenly Father is gone or less than what it was, and I will have to work so hard to get it back. I tell myself I’m going to do all of these things differently to start showing God He is a priority in my life. Sound familiar?

If this is you, I have news for you today. God is, and will always be, stuck to you like glue! (Even when you don’t feel it or spend time with Him!) He is close to you in this moment and does not have plans of ever leaving your side. He chooses to be this close to you because He loves you more than anything, and nothing you could ever do will take that away.

His love for you is not swayed by the minutes or hours you spend in your day with Him. While He loves this devoted time with you, He doesn’t want you to fall into this trap of fear and questioning His love and connection to you.

Isaiah 41:10 says, “So do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

Even when we distract ourselves and seem too busy for God, He is still there with open arms, inviting us in and ready to help, strengthen, and love us. All because of His connection to His creation.

I know it sounds cliche, but we face different seasons for different reasons. In the season I’m in right now, my time with God looks different every day. And that’s okay!

Horses don’t keep records of wrongs, and neither does our God. So, it’s okay if you’ve struggled in your time with Him. Today is the perfect day to get back on track, refresh your mindset, and make your relationship with God a priority in your life. No more beating yourself up!!

Journal Prompt:

Think of your time with God. Does it feel rushed, scattered, or forced? I have a challenge for you. Each day this week, try opening your Bible and sitting in the stillness of God’s presence. No agenda. No pressure. Just relax and fix your thoughts on Him. Sit there as long as you feel necessary, and then journal what God speaks to you or how He makes you feel. I like to turn on some worship music for the days that my brain needs help!! :) 

Ref. 1 Corinthians 13:4-13, Romans 8:31-39